warmestregards

preface:

i have been afraid

afraid to open my eyes and see another go

afraid to open myself and lose that too

afraid to live because i dont know how it will all end

you take that away from meeh

we didnt pace ourselves and i think that is what kept us alive

tradition went out the window

and not the stuff our parents made their attempts at instilling

but things we conjured up on our own based on the lives we've led thus far

we were something else

no name no title no descriptions

yeah, im sure that is what kept us alive

i thought long and hard and decided the best thing was to stop

to stop planning and stop thinking

to stop trying to fit everything into these preconceived outlines

to stop hindering myself with superficial barriers

and do something for the books

and i did

i got up on that plane and looked out the door

this is where i would jump

i would give in to my worst fear to achieve the one goal i really have in life

to live

i stepped out on to the clouds

and let them transport meeh right to where you were

and as i was falling all i could think of was your smile

and the kiss that awaited meeh down on the ground

and i wanted it to go faster

dear you,

i am not afraid anymore. i dont put on gloves to hold the pole in the metro. i just do. i pluck the rose before inspecting the stem. if a thorn catches meeh i will wipe the blood and pluck another. you taught meeh that its okei to be careful as long as its not debilitating. you taught meeh that some things remain and while every moment is fleeting, i shouldnt simply watch it go. because of you i will run freely, and if i fall and it hurts then ill get back up and run some more. i wont be bitter and i wont shut down. because of you, i will live.

warmest regards