yesterday

there is a song called yesterday after a ms lewis

on this day it brings meeh to a place i never thought i would be

a place i never wanted to revisit...

but here i am.......

i do not believe in regrets

all of life's experiences make you who you are today

but on this day i am not proud of the woman i see looking back at meeh through the mirror.

she is not strong nor is she sure

but she hears those words over and over again

waling on how they cannot take away our yesterdays

but they are gone from meeh now

so what...

perhaps we spent so much time lying to ourselves

thinking that what we had was so wonderful that the memories will live forever

but they are so painful that no one wants to think on them

they proffer a slow and painful death

and only the masochistic endure it for fun.

i was strong enough for it once.

but since yesterday.... that strength is gone from meeh

so yes, they can take tomorrow and the plans we made

and they can take the music that we'll never play

all the broken dreams take everything

they can take them away....

but indeed, they can take our yesterday

because only then will the rivers that flow from my ducts cease

and only then will the breath return to my body

i want to become whole again

so leave meeh yesterday

take the kisses we shared

and take the slow gentle caresses

take away from meeh the memories of your fingers tracing my body

take that yesterday from meeh

i dont want to know you

but because of what we've shared

my life is dead without you

take my yesterdays

take the future that we will never know

and take from the meeh places that we will never go

i only want my yesterdays to leave meeh

because loving you and losing you

has only made meeh weak