kissesinthedark

he told meeh it would be us against the world
i knew the world would take issue
so i withdrew
his soft kisses in the dark were all i needed
the rest i guess was just for fun

but then i got older
and time started passing meeh by
i didnt mind it
but the fun was over
and i started having all these grown up thoughts and feelings
and i fell in love with the idea of him first

the idea of my lover being my best friend
the idea of my protectorate being my key
the idea that i could give all my vulnerabilities to this one soul
this one man who would hold meeh
and keep meeh from my darkness

and then i fell in love with him
and the idea was nothing like who he turned out to be
the darkness that consumes him
as it throws meeh to the floor
the anger that covers him as he lashes out
but i was to remain in perfect form

well i didnt
and you were wrong to expect that i would
but that didnt just hurt him
it hurt meeh more

it made him question my love
and call it a lie
and all i could think was its over

while he did what he had always done
i cried and wished i didnt go further than that stupid idea
some things should remain dreams always
dreamers live forever
i just laid there on the floor and died.