nomorerainbows

"you see i been dead so long
closed in silence so long
i dont know the sound of my own voice."

the rainbow ended and i guess i ran outta ways to pretend.
i carried a burden to heavy for even me
and all this time i was pretending to be superwoman
well i aint

im not her

the sobbing the screaming
the kicking the bleeding
the secrets that kill my soul

but i cant tell a soul

"i wanted to know if i could stand not being wanted
when i wanted to be wanted"
and it burned a whole in my being
but i never dropped to my knees

all of meeh wanted you
but never needed you until now
now that i sit on this floor
with my secret

lets play it out again
swap you for meeh
then no one would have any more secrets

hang yourself with the pain if you want
but im gon choose something different this time
imma get this here together and eat what i know i shouldnt
and drink what i know i shouldnt
and i promise not to wake up with another secret.

see i done made fire from rain
and wind from water
where there is woman
there is magic

but there is more to a woman
than her breast and thighs
she is created to bear suffering
and carry the weights of the world

but the rainbow gone now
i got no more reasons
and this damn hole is consuming meeh
so i sit here
with my food and drink to say
enough is enuf