howtofightfornow

I can think of a million reasons why the other way looks so good
Sillie goose, I don’t believe in magic and tricks are only for kids anyway
This was not supposed to go this way

It seems that somewhere in between the work and the laughs
You were picking at my heart and gathering it up
Piece by piece

I don’t know what any of this is
I don’t want to
I don’t want to think of it
Because then I will find a need to control it

For once, I want to be controlled.

I want to be surprised everyday
And hold all the words inside
Don’t speak, sir
Let us just feel this one all the way out.

I fought to be alone
I fight against my past burying me in fear
I fought to be alive
I know how to do a lot of things
This time, though, i need assistance
show me how to fight for now